Okay, so I’m just kidding….sort of. As much as I like to complain about Christmas, I will confess that I did have some fun this year.
Little Man is nearly 14 months old this time around, and it only took a few minutes for him to catch on to the fact that there were TOYS underneath all that pretty wrapping!
I saw just a bit of that wonder everyone talks about with kids and Christmas, and I know that it’s only going to get better each year.
I’ve been putting off writing a more formal “holiday” post because, well, it’s just really hard to put into words how I’m feeling this year. I got to spend the day with my whole family, which doesn’t happen very often (my brother is working on his doctoral dissertation at Ohio State and doesn’t get home much) and we enjoyed a day full of thoughtful gifts, good food, and fewer worries about the cost of it all than we’ve had in recent years. I look at my son, playing happily with his new toys, and I realize that I’m actually able to care for him, and give him what he needs. I’m parenting and providing, and I’m doing OK.
He’s a happy little boy, with a roof over his head and a mommy and daddy that dote on him. He’s got lots of grandparents, so he’s not hurting for attention there either. As much as I complain about our house, it is a warm place for him to sleep and play and live, and there is good, healthy food on the table every day. For that, I feel enormously lucky.
I know many moms who were not able to spend the holidays with their little ones this year. One mom in particular has been in my thoughts nearly nonstop for 2 weeks now, and I’ve been deeply affected by reading her posts and wishing so badly that there was some way to help her. Each night, I hold my son and nurse him as he snuggles in tightly against my body, and I am grateful enough to make tears roll down my face. Again, I feel enormously lucky.
I write a lot on this blog about the choices I make regarding the foods we eat, the toys we buy, the products we use. But right now, in reflecting on the holiday season, I’d like to just put it out there that I feel so, so fortunate to even have those choices to make.
We are far from wealthy, and we live on a tight budget, but we have jobs to go to every day. We also have our health, and we have each other. When it comes down to it, what else is there, really?
There are so many children out there who did not wake up to a tree surrounded by presents this year, and many who did not get the chance to spend their day with loved ones. A heartbreakingly large number of people did not get to plan and cook a holiday meal, let alone have the option of making healthier choices, and only wish they had the worry of trying to avoid too many Christmas cookies.
In the next week or so, I’ll be addressing some goals and resolutions for the upcoming new year, and I’m so excited for all the opportunity I anticipate in the coming months. But for now, I’m just going to enjoy the last of the far-too-indulgent homemade goodies, take the time to sit and watch my toddler cook play food and shake his new tambourine, and make a slightly early but very heartfelt resolution to never take any of it for granted.
We hope those of you who celebrate Christmas had a very, very happy holiday, surrounded by lots of love! As our Christmas card read this year, BIG SMILES FROM OUR FAMILY TO YOURS!